Recursive Words

The life and times of a work-from-home software and web developer as he fights a house, four women, two cats, idiocy, apathy and procrastination on an almost daily basis.

  • Nine Days

    Nine Days

    In the midst of feeling pretty depleted last night, a wonderful friend reminded me that I have nine days to make my own stretched out in front of me. Nine days to recharge.

    Except of course the nine days are already being taken from me. “Can you just”…

    Deep breaths.

    I’m sitting in Spoons while writing this. It’s remarkably dead this morning. The clock is ticking towards 10am, and the floor is a sea of empty tables. I half hoped my eldest daughter might join me, but there’s no sign of her yet.

    A grown man just walked past in full “toddler” apparel. This fashion trend hadn’t occurred to me until Jimmy Carr called it out during a stand-up routine. Seriously… short trousers, an enormous hoodie, and a beanie hat.

    Change of subject.

    Something has been picking away at me for a while – probably a subject for an entire blog post at some point. Why is it that US men have to try and be the wise-guy all the time? Any time they post anything online they have to try and be funny – any time they comment they have to try to be snarky. Why? What the hell happened to being genuine, thoughtful, honest, or empathetic?

    I don’t get it. I really don’t. It’s right up there with mansplaining. Why do so many people feel the need to explain to others what they are seeing, reading, or hearing? THEY SAW, READ OR HEARD THE SAME THING AS YOU!

    Drax from Guardians of the Galaxy comes to mind – I’m guessing a huge swathe of the world’s population have no idea he was aimed directly at them. “That’s funny because…”, “The thing they did there was…”, “They totally just…” … we know. We watched it, read it, or listened to it. We know.

    It’s all so exhausting.

    Anyway.

    The morning is disappearing in front of me. I promised my other half some nice croissants from the store. Wish me luck in finding them.

  • Strawberry jam on toast versus the common cold

    While brushing my teeth a few days ago, it occurred to me that I haven’t been sick for quite some time. Months. Not since this time last year, when I ended up at the doctors for perhaps the third time in twenty five years, and ended up being prescribed alarming quantities of steroids.

    Somebody, somewhere was obviously listening to my thoughts, and began grinning – because within twenty four hours by body had started to go down-hill. By yesterday evening I could feel the fog, the aches, and the detachment sweeping through me.

    Deciding that I was having none of it, I found a bottle of “First Defence” in the kitchen cupboard – a nasal spray that was probably distilled from Smaug’s tears in the depths of Mount Doom. I sprayed far more than I probably should have into the depths of my head, and wretched as it found every dark, snotty corner possible to terrorise.

    Shortly afterwards I reverted from a somewhat healthy diet, to the “give my body as much energy as possible” alternative – strawberry jam on toast, and hot chocolate.

    By this morning my body appeared to have done all the burning up it was going to do, and left all manner of aches and pains for me to put up with. Feeling suitably like a car crash survivor as I stepped from the shower, I considered not shaving, but then the weight of expectation and obligation swept over me. If I was going to have to sit through meetings for work, I would at least look somewhat presentable.

    After squirting more of Smaug’s toxic spit up my nose, wrenching some more, and taking some flu tablets, I started the day as per normal.

    The tablets actually worked. Or rather, the tablets succeeded in dulling enough of my senses that I didn’t think there was much wrong with me for a few hours. Granted, they also made me deaf as a post, but I wasn’t going to start complaining.

    Half-way through the day I escaped to the corner shop to acquire sport drinks and chocolate biscuits. Fighting the virus with colossal quantities of sugar seems to be working so far – giving my body sufficient fuel to either win, or become diabetic. I’m hoping the former.

    We’ll see how I’m doing when I wake up tomorrow morning. There’s only so much rubbish you can eat before your skin breaks out like a teenager, or your ass grows to the size of Jupiter.

    Fingers crossed I don’t have to call the Vogons to arrange an interstellar bypass past my Jupiter sized backside.

  • The one where I flooded the kitchen

    While taking a break from work this morning, I wandered into the kitchen and decided that the clothes rack had been standing in everybody’s way for quite long enough. While folding the clothes from the rack onto the dining room table, and putting various other things away (my daughters are experts at getting things out), I also started making myself a cup of coffee.

    I put the coffee pod in the machine, filled the water reservoir, and pressed the start button. It takes a little while before it starts making coffee, so I carried on folding clothes.

    A few moments my youngest daughter – who was busy making breakfast, and getting things out to not put away – asked why there was coffee everywhere.

    I had forgotten to put a cup under the spout of the coffee machine. It had poured a lovely cup of perfectly brewed coffee all over the work-top – filling it’s own drip tray, and then inventing a coffee shaped puddle strangely reminiscent of the African continent on the work-top.

    I started swearing. Quite a lot.

    A minute, and half a roll of kitchen paper later, the coffee was cleaned up, and the machine was tasked with making another cup – with a cup for it to land in this time.

    I’m SUCH an idiot sometimes.

    The rest of the day has been mercifully less accident prone – progressing some programming for work, and now taking a lunch break. I usually listen to BBC Radio 2, but can’t stand their current affairs programmes – they should all be re-titled “The programme where we invite bigots to call in and complain about anything and everything”. I really don’t like negativity. I have to deal with it enough in real life, without the radio throwing it at me too. I’ve switched to Magic Radio for a bit – they play a mix of 80s and 90s music throughout the day.

    Ronan Keating is singing “When You Say Nothing At All”. I think he hosts a show on Magic Radio – he used to be on the breakfast show. Whenever I think of Ronan, I think about his duet with Kate Rusby – “All Over Again” – you can find it on Youtube if you dig deep enough. Whenever I hear it, I think about an old friend. It’s funny how music ties us to memories, people, and places, isn’t it.

    Anyway.

    I better get on. Two and a half days left until a week off. I fear it’s going to rain cats and dogs next week. Never mind. I’m sure it will be warm and dry at Wetherspoons…

  • Faking It

    Faking It

    A few days ago while walking home from town the cogs at the back of my brain started turning. I’m not entirely sure why they started turning, but they did, and I wrote down what was turning over and over, which was lucky really, because moments later the universe landed a size twenty eight foot on me.

    As I finished writing the thought down – while approaching a narrow footpath that leads towards home from the town centre – a teenager on an electric scooter (which are illegal here), shot out from the footpath doing perhaps 25 miles per hour. His shoulder missed mine by inches. In the moments that followed, I wondered what would have happened if he had hit me. Given that I was perhaps twice as heavy as him, and I had a moment to react, I can only imagine the tangled mess he would have ended up in as he catapulted away from me.

    Upon arriving home, after an hour eating breakfast on my own, my entire weekend got tipped upside down and shaken vigorously. In order for my youngest daughter to eject furniture from her room (a long story for another day), and in order to avoid throwing said furniture away, I re-arranged the junk room – the room I spend most days working from. While it sounds simple, it was anything but – because it involved moving floor to ceiling book-cases – which had to be emptied and re-filled in turn. By Sunday afternoon, and after several trips to the rubbish dump, the main part of the job was complete.

    We then went out yesterday evening with friends – a trip out to the pub together for a meal. As the night wore on the usual affirmations were made about “doing this more often”. I smiled and said nothing, having cancelled my day off plans twice in three days for others. How anybody thinks anybody else can plan anything at all is beyond me. Or maybe it’s just me that gets thrown under every bus at every opportunity?

    Anyway.

    I remembered today that I had written something down to write a blog post about – and tried to remember why it had seemed like such a big thing at the time. Alas, much of that has gone, but it’s still a good subject, so I’m going to throw it out there anyway.

    If you have children, at what age did they stop holding your hand? My daughters all went through a phase of me apparently ruining their street cred pretty horribly – for several years (and let’s face it, they’re not wrong) – before slowly returning. While walking through London a little while ago, in a busy crowd, my eldest daughter – 25 this year – reached out and grabbed my hand for the first time in ages.

    That thought percolated – as thoughts tend to – and turned into a second thought. At what age do children figure out that their parents are not all-seeing, all-knowing super-beings? At what age do they figure out that everybody’s making it up as they go along?

    Sure, some of us are better at making it up than others, but we’re all faking it really, aren’t we?

  • Escapology and Weird Dreams

    I discovered this morning that I can’t listen to a podcast and write at the same time – I end gazing into space and listening rather than writing anything. My multi-tasking abilities are that bad.

    It’s been a week. A relentless week. A relentless few weeks. Months actually. I can’t really share any of the reasons why either – I try to keep a line between “me the professional software developer”, and “me the blogger, husband, YouTuber, writers, runner, tidy-upper, washer-upper, and general solver of whatever needs solving next”.

    Escaping for an hour on a Saturday morning to the big Wetherspoons in town has become an unexpected ritual. I didn’t get here early enough this morning to bag a booth, so I’m perched on a small table near the coffee machines – close enough that I can grab a coffee without somebody stealing everything I own.

    I cleared the time off with work yesterday to visit my parents next month. I’ll jump on the train – it’s a long journey – and am crossing my fingers that travelling on week-days in term time (I’ve booked a Friday and Monday off) means the train will be quiet.

    I have the week after next booked off work. A staycation of sorts. There are tentative plans to visit London – the LEGO store in Leicester Square with my other half and middle daughter.

    Changing subject entirely, I had the strangest dream last night – about a couple I know that live in the US now – but used to live over here. We met through blogging, and went out for days out several times before they moved away. In the dream a movie had been made of their life – she was being played by Scarlett Johansson. None of it made any sense, but I clearly remember a conversation with her – about how Scarlett had captured her so well.

    Weird.

    Right. The pub is getting busier by the minute. A table full of men of a certain age – probably owners of companies, given their demeanour – that obviously meet up for breakfast together each week just descended on the table opposite me. I need to get out of dodge.

    I’ll try and write more later.

  • The Extroverted Introvert Corollary

    A few days ago I made the colossal mistake of setting foot into the “social internet” in search of hopefully kindred spirits – or “Unicorns” as I labelled them at the time – fellow recorders of life’s exhalations.

    The wonderful thing about writing a blog – to me at least – is the bubble of solitude I sit in while writing it. My own little world, filled with the unimportant and inconsequential. A world without the voices or vices of others.

    Given that most of my waking week revolves around others – doing chores, running errands, picking up, washing up, or tidying up at home – or descending into code caverns measureless to man for work – having somewhere else that is “mine” is kind of wonderful.

    There’s something about standing your words up for others to read – there’s something about being a part of something bigger than yourself. So you stand your words up, click “publish”, invite the world to read them, and then walk swiftly in the opposite direction – listening for furious footsteps behind you.

    How much do we share with others? How much of a wall do we leave to hide behind? I suspect my wall probably has more bricks left in it than many. I’m not sure if that’s because I worry about betraying confidences, or because I fear the reaction to what I really think about things.

    The best way to avoid confronting truths is to avoid talking about them.

    I watched an interesting panel discussion about belief, faith, and religion last night – where Richard Dawkins and Ricky Gervais spoke at length about their experiences as self-proclaimed “atheists”. Ricky made the astute observation that it’s a shame there has to be a counter term to “theism” at all.

    The entire nature of opposition annoys me – that some people feel the need not only to question your thoughts, opinions, or views – but in doing so illustrate the fragility of their own. In sharing with the community, we shouldn’t have to prepare a defence, and we shouldn’t then have to dance around reactions to avoid further upsetting the obviously easily triggered.

    It’s almost like a certain demographic search for opportunities to disagree – for hills to fight pitched battles on about anything and everything that opposes their personal view of what others should think or feel about the world and it’s people.

    I find myself wondering why some people have such trouble accepting opposing thoughts, views, or opinions. It’s always been a mystery to me. Perhaps their opposition tells us more about them than ourselves, and our trepidation in triggering a reaction is misplaced.

    Anyway.

    I’ve written quite a lot about not very much. Norah would probably be proud.

  • The Saturday Spoons Ritual Continues

    I woke with a start at 7:30am this morning – to the sound of a door being slammed downstairs. Cogs turned in my head, and a member conjured itself from somewhere that my middle daughter is doing the morning shift at Wetherspoons – which of course made me think about a cooked breakfast, and a bottomless coffee.

    An hour later I left our slightly chaotic house in pursuit of my middle daughter, a cooked breakfast, and a bottomless coffee.

    I managed to bag a booth – which always feels like a victory. I’ve never been here this early before – it’s remarkably quiet – although getting noisier by the minute. A small child is almost speaking somewhere behind me – garbling word-like sounds – it won’t be long before they’re asking their parents “why?” about anything and everything. In a strange sort of way I miss those days.

    My coffee mug arrived within moments of ordering it – quickly followed by the “small American” breakfast. It’s the same as an “American” breakfast, except you get one of each thing, instead of enough to feed an entire family for several days. In case you’re wondering – potato hash, fried egg, pancakes, bacon, and a sausage. I’m sipping the “bottomless coffee” (a cappuccino) while writing this.

    I’ve never forgotten something a co-worker once said – “you’re not full until you’re thoroughly disgusted with yourself”.

    As mentioned, I left a slightly chaotic house behind – all of my daughters are (or were) home last night, along with two boyfriends.

    I would normally wander between the shower and the kitchen in my underwear on a morning. Having house guests – regardless that they might look like they’ve been pulled through a hedge backwards – makes me pause. It always seems ridiculous though – getting half-dressed to walk to the bathroom, then undressing again. Thankfully I made it as far as being dressed before anybody else appeared this morning.

    We have a three day weekend! – it’s a bank holiday here on Monday. I’ve been looking forward to it for some time. The weird thing? A work programming project has been borrowing time in my brain overnight – and continues to do so. I woke up thinking about it this morning, and still find my thoughts drifting off towards it while writing this.

    I need to somehow shut my brain down – step away – divert myself.

    I guess that’s often where the YouTube channel comes in – although that has its own pressures. When I first started, it was just me having fun in the simulator. I’m now judged by a higher bar than most; when I set foot in a simulated aircraft I’m expected to not only know how it works, but also how it should be operated, what the correct procedures are, how to communicate with air traffic controllers, how to deal with emergencies, and so on. It’s a lot.

    I receive a steady stream of emails every day from people all over the world – looking for help with this aircraft, that aircraft, this GPS system, that guidance system, this joystick, that throttle, this computer, that computer, and so on. I try to reply to them all, but I don’t always manage it.

    I also receive a steady stream of offers from marketers – trying to take advantage of the audience I have accrued – offering me money to advertise the most random things you can imagine. One company in particular has been offering me increasing sums of money to do the hard-sell on a dash-cam system for cars. A certain famous software development studio offered me an eye watering amount of money to live-stream myself playing their latest first-person-shooter game. I graciously turned them down.

    Imagine if you’re sitting down to watch a TV show you like, and the presenters suddenly pull out paintball guns, and announce “instead of our normal show, we’re going to run around shooting each other today”. Actually – some people would probably love that.

    Anyway.

    It’s probably time for me to move. The pub is slowly filling with families arriving for breakfast. The booth I’m sitting in is becoming prized real estate. Maybe I should hang around for a moment or two – to see who makes a run for it.

    Or maybe I’ll just go. I can almost feel the pull of the bookshop already.

  • The almost impossible search for unicorns

    I started writing a blog before the word “blog” had entered common parlance.

    Yes, I’m that old.

    In the late 1990s the only way you could publish words to the internet was via a self hosted website, or via one of the earliest social platforms such as Geocities – which experienced “enshittification” decades before Cory Doctorow coined the term.

    If you’ve never heard of “enshittification”, it essentially describes the cycle most internet platforms have gone through – first attracting users, then abusing them for business purposes, then finally abusing the platform to such an extent that it no longer serves it’s original purpose, and is strip-mined for scrap.

    So… back in the mists of time a number of different publishing platforms arrived – the likes of Blogger and LiveJournal – enabling anybody and everybody to start publishing their thoughts about the latest episode of X-Files or Battlestar Galactica for all to read.

    Eventually WordPress arrived and crushed most of the previous platforms under its considerably shiny boots. Of course WordPress was a parlour trick of sorts – beneath the veneer of its shiny boots laid a foundation as old as the web itself – which it still creeks and groans atop today.

    Who cares if the service works though, right? All you want to do is post your words, and allow others to read them – and that’s exactly what WordPress, Moveable Type, Vox, Posterous, Yahoo 360, Blogger, Medium, Tumblr, and others promised.

    There has always been a problem with the social internet though – the same problem that afflicts high-streets all over the world. As soon as a coffee shop turns up, you know that all of the genuine “mom and pop” stores days are numbered – the chains will arrive within months, and either run at a loss as a “statement” location, or survive for a few months as a hobby project for somebody with too much money and not enough common sense.

    I’m getting side-tracked.

    The promise of the social internet saw an explosion of interest in blogging. For a time – in the mid to late 2000s – the noise from a million keyboards was cacophonous. People opened their lives to the internet – recording their days, thoughts and dreams.

    And then the coffee shops arrived.

    Slowly but surely, blogs became monetised. Rather than adhering to Norah Ephron’s maxim that a blog didn’t need to be about anything much at all, or only relevant for as long as it was being written, commercial interests arrived, and instantly enshittified everything they touched. Suddenly everything had to have a niche – an angle – a focus. Traffic equals eyeballs equals mouse-clicks equals money. More followers. More subscribers. More, more, more. The entire online audience became a fishing expedition for many – drag-lining every barrel until the bottom fell out.

    It’s happening right now at LinkedIn, and I suspect it’s starting to happen to Substack too.

    I’m a bit sad about it, if I’m honest.

    The attraction of social platforms for me is that if you cast a wide enough net, you’ll discover at least a few beautiful souls (and yes – that is a mangled quote from The OA). There comes a point however where every time you so much as touch the water with your net, it instantly fills with floating plastic – wrapped in advertisements, mansplained get rich quick schemes, and breathless tales of “how I convinced 50,000 people to subscribe to my advertorial nonsense”.

    I’m pretty sure the bloggers I remember are still out there – sharing their almost daily thoughts about things that don’t really matter – but there’s just so much damn noise now that the chances of finding them are impossibly small. Impossibly small, but not non-existent.

    And that’s what keeps me going.

    If I’m still writing a personal journal, and publishing it to the internet, then perhaps somebody else is too. I might not have discovered them yet, but I might.

    I might discover them tomorrow.

  • Escape

    Escape

    It occurred to me this morning that I’m not so much living in an escape room – rather an escape life. Except I’m not really trying to escape – just becoming increasingly aware of guard rails in all directions. Of course they’re not outwardly obvious, in the same way as a locked door – they’re cloaked in obligations, expectations, and responsibilities.

    I wonder how different life might look if we didn’t weigh everything we do by what others expect, how we think our actions are perceived, or how much trouble we imagine stepping out of our lane – even for a few moments – will cause.

    Perhaps it’s all in my head.

    There’s an attraction to choosing the path of least resistance through each day. In the process of doing so you pretty much slam all the sliding doors around you though. Things you might have done. Things you wished you had done.

    Anyway.

    You find me sitting in Wetherspoons once more this morning – escaping the house for an hour for a coffee and a cooked breakfast. Given I rarely get a chance to either leave the house or interact with anybody during a typical week, these visits have become unexpectedly needed.

    After ordering an “English breakfast”, the son of a close friend approached with a plate of food in his hand, and a shy smile. I smiled back, asked him how his new job was going, and tried to avoid embarrassing him too much. It’s interesting to see him “all grown up” – when ever I think of either my own children, or the children of friends, in my head they’re still at junior school.

    Right.

    Time is marching on. Time to wander down to the street market and have a nose around.

  • A somewhat accidental Swiftie

    Some years ago – while chatting with an old friend (and wonderful singer) in Oklahoma, the subject of music came up, and I asked what she was listening to – for recommendations. At the time I was on a bit of a folk music kick. She recommended Rascal Flats, Keith Urban, and a new teenager that was being played a lot on her local radio stations at the time – called Taylor Swift.

    I was working in London at the time, and spent several weeks with their albums ripped onto an early MP3 player called a “Creative Muvo”.

    Along the way I lost touch with the friend, but the music stayed on the succession of music players and phones that lived in my pockets – travelling all over Europe, and the wider world with me.

    I eventually lost track of Taylor, Keith, and Rascal Flats too – until I took my eldest daughter to watch the Hannah Montana movie (she was a colossal Hannah Montana fan – bed spread, pyjamas – the whole bit). Of course Rascal Flats appeared in the movie. On the way home I stopped at a music store – I didn’t find anything by Rascal Flats, but I did find the Red album.

    Fast forward another few years, and the kids have grown up, are off doing their own thing, and I’m re-living my youth. I bought a record player. Given that I never owned many vinyl records growing up (child of the CD generation), it was all sorts of exciting – going “record shopping”. My other half has a colossal vinyl record collection, but it turns out has no female artists in it at all. So I set about putting that right – buying back the formative albums of my twenty-something years in vinyl format; Tori Amos, Alanis Morrissette, Kylie Minogue, Heart – with a huge skew towards female singer-songwriters.

    Around the same time I started reading the news stories about Taylor’s back catalogue being sold out from under her, and her crusade to re-record everything – to destroy the value of the back catalogue.

    I went record shopping – in search of the “Taylor’s Version” albums – and while listening to them became a somewhat accidental Swiftie.

    While working on an enormous project in my day job for an entire summer, she provided a daily soundtrack.

    I became the butt of jokes among friends for awhile – but then the Eras tour happened, and suddenly everybody was listening to her – buying her music – and listening to her talk an awful lot of sense when interviewed.

    In a world filled with Z-List celebrities craving fame for five minutes at any cost, Taylor became a timely reminder (to me at least) that stars do still exist.

    I bought “The Tortured Poets Department” on the day it was released. It’s been a go-to album during the quiet moments ever since. I’m quietly looking forward to the new album.

    Given that anybody and everybody seems to pile on anybody that dares be different any more, I don’t mind standing up and being counted. It has always struck me that if small minded people invested as much effort in being kind, as they do in judging or tearing down others, the world would be a very different place.

  • When does today become tomorrow

    While writing this (after procrastinating famously for the last hour), the clock is busy ticking past 1am – or rather, it did so about 10 minutes ago. I’m ridiculously tired, but also aware I’ve not written for a few days, and want to at least empty some of the utter idiocy from my head, lest it be forgotten entirely.

    A new coffee machine arrived today. It arrived mid-morning, but I didn’t get a chance to open the box until late this evening – by which time my middle daughter had opened it (and left the packaging all over the kitchen floor in the same way she leaves her shoes, bag, coat, and dirty clothes all over the floor throughout the entire house, but we won’t go on too much about that).

    I will admit to being a bit crestfallen when I discovered the box had been opened. There’s something about opening parcels, isn’t there – reminders of childhood birthdays or Christmases perhaps.

    After finishing work quite late – because I’m terrible at walking away from anything that needs solving – I realised I had no coffee pods for the coffee machine. Crap.

    An hour later I returned from town, with a bag full of coffee pods, and a bunch of bananas (don’t ask). After surviving on instant coffee for the last several weeks, having a nice cup of frothy coffee once more was kind of wonderful.

    We ate dinner late. Some of the oven trays are still soaking in the sink. You know how some meals seems like a quick solution , but then they make such a mess of the cooker trays, it then takes 18 hours to soak and scrub them afterwards? That happened tonight.

    So guess who will be finishing washing up before he starts work in the morning…

    Later this evening I recorded more content for YouTube, and then fell down a colossal internet rabbit-hole – listening to authors talk about their books. I chanced upon a wonderful speech Andy Weir gave about the writing of “The Martian”, and its unanticipated success – which is most of the reason I’m now sitting here at 01:15am.

    I should go brush my teeth and fall into bed. I have a couple of days coming surrounded by thousands of lines of source code. I’m going to need to be awake.

  • The table for one problem

    It’s Saturday morning, and you find me sitting in the middle of the huge Wetherspoons in town – escaping the house for a cooked breakfast and a “bottomless” coffee. After a couple of weeks burning the candle at both ends, I’m “treating myself” (that episode of Parks and Recreation will never leave my brain – I very much doubt I’ll buy a Batman suit for myself though).

    In true “throw myself under the bus” fashion, I offered the breakfast trip to the rest of the family. Those that were already up – sitting in the lounge in their pyjamas – declined. I was kind of thankful – the worst case scenario this morning would have involved buying breakfast for six of us, and probably not leaving the house for another hour.

    Eating alone isn’t without it’s problems though

    I’m perched on one of their smaller tables with the laptop, coffee at my side – nursing the bottomless coffee because there’s no easy way of getting another without either leaving my laptop for somebody to steal, or upping sticks and taking everything with me to the coffee machines. Of course if I take everything with me, somebody else will take the table I’m sitting at – that I’ve ordered food to arrive at.

    You end up doing things in a certain order to make them manageable – ordering coffee and food, knowing the cup will arrive first – then hoping for no queue at the coffee machines before taking everything with you and returning as quickly as possible – hoping you’re not going to have to tell somebody that you’ve ordered food to arrive at the table they’re now sitting at.

    The same thing happens on trains and planes. If you need to use the bathroom, you’re going to have to leave your stuff behind. If that includes a computer, you find yourself in the ridiculous situation of perhaps having to put everything away, then get it out again – or fall on the mercy of hopefully trustworthy nearby strangers to keep an eye on it for you.

    I’ve watched countless laptops and bags for strangers while on trains and planes – I always seem to be the trustworthy looking stranger. I guess I should be flattered really.

    Isn’t it interesting how we choose who we trust though. I wonder what the unconscious cues are?

    I’m guessing “next stop” will be the newsagent – to peruse the magazines. I’m toying with signing up for “Apple One” because it includes “News+” – which will pay for itself almost immediately – it includes countless magazines and newspapers – all with NO advertising. I’m a bit old-school in terms of news – if at a loose end you’ll invariably find me reading the news, and trying to get different perspectives on stories. I tend to rail against obviously biased reporting.

    It seems (to me at least) that some people like to surround themselves with concordant feedback. Given that I grew up alongside the “social internet”, I’ve always been wary of it.

    Algorithmic timelines purposely target that which we have stopped to read or interact with. The long game is a pursuit of our interests and prejudices in order to indirectly sell them to insidious marketers (“who do you want your advertisements to surface to? Right wing faschists? Yes, we can do that for you, even if they don’t realise they are…”). I’ve written about the end result before – the unaware presume the majority agree with their horribly distorted and uninformed views and opinions – they can’t be wrong, because “everybody” seems to agree with them. The machinery of the internet self-sorts people by prejudice.

    Anyway.

    Time is marching on. Time to go for a wander, and climb off my high horse. Maybe a quick scroll through the social internet first though, hey – to re-enforce a few of my own prejudices.